I should be doing my homework since it’s due at midnight, but I’m such a shitty mood and I honestly can’t handle dealing with this shit anymore.
He doesn’t know what the fuck he wants, and in addition, putting me through this mess and thinking I’m just going to ride it out and just wait for him. I’m not waiting, I’m not going to deal with this anymore. It’s bullshit.
I like him so much. I really, really do. But when you go around with other girls and fucking lie to my face, that’s when we have problems. I’m not dealing with that shit anymore. And from someone who I thought was my best friend…I still don’t understand it.
I will no longer be supporting, contacting, nor caring about him. He’s fucking dead to me.
what happens if he actually comes back? Maybe I’d be silly enough to take him back. I want him back. I do care. But right now, it’s time to focus on me and my fencing, school, and work. My own personal health is what I need to focus on right now.